Sandra
Friday, February 2, 2007
Sandra, an accountant, stands in the office kitchen, looking at the array of teas, her shoulders sloping despondently, her lips slightly apart, her hair and skin lustreless and sagging, like old upholstery; she pulls a squeaky polystyrene cup from its clingfilm tube, adds a teabag on a string, and runs the faucet on the hot water tank: all this despite her only being 23.
The reason she’s such a wreck is she’s been up all night, dreaming of Paul. She punishes herself with condensed milk and a sugarlump, and stirs the brew with a toothpick. She can’t stop thinking about Paul’s magnificent inky bouffant, his flashing opalescent eyes, his luxuriant sideburns. Paul.
He wants to see her for lunch today. Why? What does Paul see in me, she thinks, dropping the string into the cup (fuck!) Paul. Why do I feel like I’m on the edge of a black hole, spiralling hopelessly into an oblivion called Paul?
El Presidente is lean, long-necked, and plain. What would you say to him, if you could say anything? He would extend an arm, and a smile, and say “hello”, and it would occur to you that the famed intelligence and acumen, the always-on analytical mind, and the legendary charm, these are just the skin, like the skin of an automaton, a thin frame, and beneath the frame is what? Blank, fathomless calm, a cavernous monochrome room, illuminated thinly by a tiny or very distant flame.


The first thing that strikes you about Paul is his extravagant coiffure, billowing out and up from his prominent forehead like a black stormcloud on a prairie. This diverts your attention momentarily from his stoatish, obsidian eyes and slightly effeminate mouth. Paul ought to have luxuriant sideburns, to the extent that your mind’s eye superimposes them onto his cheekbones. His smile is as thick and cloying as a faceful of hydrangeas.